
"I laughed so hard I peed my pants, but only a couple of drops."
Today - three years ago today was my first day without my maternal grandfather. Before he died holding my hand, I asked him two questions:
Was he scared? His reply was "would you want to live like this?" - my answer was "no way". In that moment, I understood that if you took a position of love - you could not go wrong and it would bring you much strength. I saw him get strong in front of my eyes - even tho his body was so weak.
Did he get the letter I sent him in the summer of 1997? ( I wrote a letter to each grandparent thanking them for minutia - each letter no less than 25 pages). He replied that he did, he saved it. Good. He knew how much I loved him, how important he was to me, and the profound impact that he had on my life - and does have on my life in absentia.
Gramps - I'm still grateful for EVERYTHING you did for me, with me , and most of all to be the beneficiary of your love. That in and of itself is a very precious gift. Thanks.